I Survive!!

Life's battles are not won,
they are survived...
No one wants you to win them,
It's all in your head...
No one cares
It's all in your head..
They say I think a lot..
They say I speak not what's on my mind..
Even if I do, would u listen..
Even if I do, would u care..
Coz the battle I fight is with myself..
Coz I dont know if I could win over myself..
All I want to do is survive..
Survive amidst myself..
Survive!!!!

BLACK!!

In my dreams I see what cannot be,
In my eyes I see what I cannot have,
In my hands I hold what I cannot hold,
My feet walk through unending roads....

My thoughts roam in places which I never thought of,
My heart beats for things I never cared before,
My soul longs for the past which was never meant to be,
My mind yearns for the future which I know I ll never see...

Amidst all this chimera I am straying away,
Straying away to the otherside...

Life!!!

The rays of the sun,

the fleet of the birds,

the blossom of the flowers,

the waves lashing on the shore,

the sand castles the kid's build,

the twinkle in the kid's eyes,

the smiles you recieve,

the fairy tales you can never forget,

the wisdom mothers always give,

the first love,

the first heart break,

the friends we make,

the dreams that open eyes see,

the long fights won, 

the tedious tasks done,

the several silver linnings which we come across,

we breathe everything that it gives us,

life is made up of all this and more,

many more mysteries to solve,

many more twists and turns,

It's the thorn and the rose both,

Life gives us a lot to live for,

buh it's how we see it,

if ur luking fo light, there is

if ur luking for darkness, there is

It's a simple joyful journey if you dont wanna complicate it,

It's a movie which you cannot rewind,

It's love and it's hate,

It can be a curse it can be a blessing,

simply said

LIFE is just where we stand for it!!!

I wanna..

I wanna
sit on ma pop's shoulders and c the world once again
sing stupid rhyming songs
wear funny clothes and still be the apple of everyone's eyes...

I wanna
jump around
play around in the mud
push ya into that puddle and run around...


I wanna
go high up on the podium and shout
climb those trees and jump down
break ma teeth n cry n laugh all over again...

I wanna
live a life where d universe is nothing but my toys
live a life full of dreams
live ma life without fighting and with selfless friends...

I wanna
skip rocks on the pond
dance on the streets
get back on ma tricycle and zoom around...

I want dose days back again
where I could do what I wanted and still be adored
I took for granted when d time was with me
But now I want it back, I think it is calling me
My childhood is calling me back.... :)

The wait!

Standing here once more
I wonder if this has sumthing to say to me at all
I roam around searching fo sumthin I yet hav2 figure out
trying to get rid of the many alibi's I come across.
I dont knoe when this joruney is gonna end
I dont knoe where this journey is gonna take me
All I knoe is that there could never be anything better than this
there could never be anything worse than this
Fighting through the ambivalence
I see you standing there staring a me
But I dunno if this is where I should cum to
I dunno if this is where I belong
I em standing here talking to the gentle rain and I knoe you will come...
Come take me along with you
In your eyes, in your face I see what I shouldnt
But I dnt really care anymore
coz in my mind em empty
all i can c through is u standing there staring at me...
Jus come along and take me with u!!
this gentle rain would stop talking to me in sumtym..
I hope till then you come and take me along with you!!

yeah ryte..

Just a few thoughts which crossed my mind..
Our lives have become such rat races.. I never regret being an Indian, but today when I see the competition around me for getting admitted into the top management institutions I seriously regret being an Indian. There is so much of competition, so much of hype for education.. Is it ol really worth it?
I mean do I need a 90 on ol ma marksheets to get an entry into dese institutes.. isn't the fact that I want 2 study, I want to do it enough for dese institutions? I mean I ll study for the entrance exams.. I ll giv it my best shot.. But why consider how much have I scored in my previous marksheets.
Also i really dont understand the funda of entrance exams.. pehle 10th ke liye ghisso, phir 10th khatam hua nahi ki start searching for 12th ki classes.. then after 12th classes start studying for the entrance exams again.. screw ur selves up n get into that engineering college which you dun even know y u r getting into.. yu dunno what it is going to get you into.. It is nuthin but a frigging rat race.. when you come out of that engineering college you dont learn to make anything.. If you learn sumthing it is to break your heads over simplest of things and get tensed up bout dem, not because you want 2.. ohh n engineering colgs really teach you how to rattofy (mug up) really well.. I mean der shud b competitions on who can mug up realy well..
once you r dun wid engg den slog it out for GRE o CAT o whicheva entrance exam you wanna give.. and dahm it if you choose to go the MBA way then bas lyf wahin pe full stop hojaati hai.. wat is left wid you is jus tension, books and (brains also stop wurkin :p) you r living but not for urself.. it's more like you r living fo these institutions..
kahan jiye yaar hum.. zindagi ke 25 yrs toh aise hi bhagam daudi mein nikaalenge.. grabbing evrey seat we are able to lay our hands on.. we knoe dat we r never goin to get these yrs back.. but still we go ahead with this rat race dreaming about the bags of goodies which v are goin to rake on later on..
v ve jus spent 40% of our lives managing to survive.. god dahm.. I even dread to think of how the remaining 60% is gonna be.. this isn't life mahn.. this is the Indian student's life.. miserable ohh.. n with the quota system.. its ol d more miserable.. i will surely talk bout that too.. but in the next one.. till den.. adios amigo.. cheerz to the rat race!!!!

jus a few thoughts...